Asian guy (Kevin) is gone… back to LA he went. I was bummed out at first but I’m okay now. I should of expected it, whenever I find someone I like (relationship or friendship wise) they end up leaving one way or another. I’m just so confused… the guy I liked is gone, I have no way of contacting him and I most likely won’t ever see him again… yet… I can’t stop thinking about someone else. Someone who I probably won’t get the chance to fix things with… Its hard to say how I feel about that. I miss him. I miss our friendship. I miss poking him. I miss his… hmmm. I can’t get sucked back into this. I really can’t. It hurts too much. Esp since its more then obvious he’s already over it… he’s made that very clear since he last called me over a month ago. I just really wanted him to know I will always love him and the friendship we had before that night. I’m no longer mad at what he did… I am sad that we didn’t get the chance to fix things. But I will smile with the tears… back when we were friends you really did make an impact in my life and I thank him for that. I will never regret walking up and saying hi to you at tower theatre in dec 2009.